HAYATY change??

ok i kind of changes to another person lately. i want everything about me is spread like an oxygen! ngeee... dont know why.. here come another story.. im right know at malacca.. ohh HELLO MALACCA~ xP at my frens house. my best frens house.. x) n we are here ohh i am here because of her brother wedding.. so bnyak la cousin n her relative kat umah.. here is the story begin.. ada sorang cousin dia seorg ckgu.. 1st tgok good impression rr.. tapi dah 2 hari aku kat sini.. boleh tahan pedas gak kakak ni.. ada 1 incident aku tgh makan sambil meratah ayam dng penuh nikmat nya.. suddenly dia tgur aku.. "kalau makan ayam jgn meratah cam tu kat depan org" ok fine~ but i cant take it.. coz just my parent have the right to advise me?? so i just said that.. " saya jadi diri sendiri" sambil tersenyum.. ngee.. x) tapi klu jijoy tau aku buat cam tu msti dia pon akn tegur.. (sory syg.. hihi..) tapi kalau makan kfc bleh ratah asal mkan ayam goreng biasa tak boleh?? it is a chicken what??!!! =,="

Hahha

story begin.. ok.. ada sorang lect kat kolej name TUUTTT.. n he teach "DINAMIKA"? subject that we expect ohh i expect that he is someone who really2 can respect others.. UNFORTUNATELY he is NOT~ ada satu incident yg buat aku terpikir yg luaran seseorang tak mnggambarkan peribadi sebenar~ simple word! u can see an apple.. a red shiny crispy apple.. that u tought it really tasty..but inside that apple pnuh ngan ulat~ euuwww.. same with with us.. all of us.. human being! WE ARE HIPOKRIT!! tak percaya? hahaa.. just look at ur self.. ur so annoying.. think u r much better than other... hellooo??? korang bukan nabi ok~ sedar diri k?? and ader ag satu stury.. its about someone i know.. she look very urrmmm ALIM.. but she speak like she errmmm SANGAP?? so now! im not willing to expect more from u those people.. n dont expect me to be more OK than u all coz im the really HUMAN BEING!! ok??!!

HURT..

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today,

I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

p/s : this song is dedicated to my love one.. if just he can see this.. bb sgt rindu kan ayg.. this time i was damn much miss u.. lbih dari ayg dapat bayang and bb dapat tanggung.. kalau lah masa bleh putar balik.. bb takkan cakap bukan2.. but untuk kebaikan bb jugak.. just wish that im not taking a wrong decision for doing this.. rasa macam nak pluk awak kuat2 syg.. seriously.. bb tak dapat bertahan.. just wish yg kiter akan berjumpa lagi coz i dont know if im doing wrong decision dgn segala pressure yg ada skang bb sangat2 perlukan ayg.. tapi bb tau ayg takkan angkat call bb kalau bb call.. ayang takkan reply msg bb.. sedih bila pk.. just wish bb selamat k.. n.. just remember.. ada or tak der bb.. life must be go on k hunny??? bb cinta ayg!

APA YG AKU TAU

apa yang aku tau???

aku kena blajar btol2.. and aku sangat tertekan skang...

apa yg aku tau??

aku cuma perlukan seorang jer dalam hidum ni

apa yang aku tau??

cuma seorang jer yg btul2 dapat bg semangat aku semula..

apa yang aku tau??

aku dah sakitkan hati orang yang paling aku cinta

apa yang aku tau??

aku berharap tempoh 4 bulan ni akan berakhir

apa yang aku tau???

aku hanya nak berjaya

apa yang aku tau??

aku akan cemburu bila tengok kau kat sebelah perempuan lain

apa yang aku nak kau tau??

tolong jgn tinggalkan aku

apa yang aku nak kau tau??

jangan lah kau sakitkan hati aku sebab

apa yang aku tau n kau tak tau

aku akan bunuh diri kalau kau terus macam ni..

aku kecewa lagi

tak der aper yg lbih menyakitkan daripada perasaan kecewa.. and aku sedang merasakan perasaan kecewa yg teramat sgt.. aku cuba untuk jadi ego.. tapi rasa sayang dah tolak ego aku jatuh nun di bawah kaki.. perempuan jenis aper aku ni ajak lelaki kuar sedang kan lelaki tu ntah nak ntah tak ngan aku? kenapa aku jadi buta kerana cinta bodoh aku? aku sakit hati bila aper aku nak dari dyer aku tak dapat.. kecewa aku makin menggunung2.. agak nya kalau di ukur aku rasa pendaki terhebat pon tak sanggup nak daki gunung kecewa aku.. aku tak tau nak wat aper dah.. aku tak tau patut ker aku merajuk.. patut ker aku biar kan semua ni berlalu cam tu jer? yg pasti rasa kecewa aku dah tak terubat lagi dah..and maafkan aku kalau aku buat keputusan yg terburu2.. aku masih sayang kan kau walau aper pon jadi.. percaya lah..

hahaha... the best memory in kmtj life.. doing brick laying practicle.. sangat susah u know.. but wif our BIG work + hard we made it!! haha.. 1st layer was done!! yippi.. next week we'll continue this again.. until this project finish.. cannot wait to see the result.. aahhh... and this is some pic my peer snap..

apa yg korg rasa bila korang tau korang hanya ader beberapa bulan jer untuk hidup di muka bumi ni?? aper harapan terakhir korang? adakah korang akan terus berharap untuk idup atau hanya berserah pada Yang Esa? kalau masih ader jalan yg terakhir adakah korang akan terus berusaha ke arah itu? eh.. knaper aku cakap pasal benda ni? haha.. aku pon tak tau.. aku asyik ingat pasal mati jer sejak 2 menjak ni.. aku sakit? entah laaa... aku tak nak tau kalau aku sakit ker tak.. adakah aku pasrah? ntah.. kadang2 aku bersyukur kalau betul aku sakit.. tapi aku sedih bila terpikir nasib parents aku yg tak terbela ag.. this is my last pray to ALLAH bila abih solat.. semoga DIA terus memberi aku ruang untuk membahagiakan kedua orang tua aku.. sebelum nafas aku berakhir biarlah dorang dapat merasa nikmat hidup di dunia.. sedih plak bila cakap cam ni.. kini hanya ader aku dan DIA jer.. biarlah rahsia tetap menjadi rahsia.. jijoy? aku pasrah... walau aper2 pon jadi dialah kekasih hidup dan matiku.. aku bertuah kerana pernah dicinta dan mencintai dia.. sesungguhnya tuhan u Maha Adil... aku serah kan segala urusan aku kepada ALLAH.. semoga aku mati dalam iman dan di tempat kan bersama2 orang yg beriman... amin..